Incoherent Musings

Unguided Findings
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Many things got me from then to here and we’re together now
Not trying to let you down, I’m trying to get my feet off the ground
Please hear me out, I’m bound to the promise of caring so much
Trying to keep me away from my fighting ways and there’s no grudge
Mainly because your touch is [...]

Went out and tried some Bugling the other day.  It was crazy, because it was the whole preparedness that was driven into us since youngings.  We had guns, we had the camo, we had the spot, we had some dogs, we had calls, but the actual experience and knowledge about the call was very lacking.  [...]

Unexpected Affections
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Simple words took a turn, now more time with you is a must
Any contact with you is a plus, even the slightest brush
It’s like a hush that comes at one of the most needed times
A full pardon after living a careful and protected life of crime
But now this life of mine is redirected towards [...]

Time and Experiences
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Skilled enough to know we’re responsible for so much more
Instincts show we’re capable of holding true after being torn
Unlike before when all we thought we needed was leaving and moving on
It worked at times, but we can’t help but wonder if there were times it was wrong
Yet now those times are gone and [...]

It’s not exactly the way things were supposed to go, but uncerimoniously I resigned my position as 1/2 of a contract pumper crew.  I figured if I’m thinking about actually hurting the other person, than time has ran it’s course, and then it would probably be a good moment to start looking into walking away.
I [...]

True Native Love
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I didn’t know about settling down or what they called holding out
All I knew was I never heard the bell signaling the end of the round
Kept myself bound to the loud talk I made as a youth
Now it’s too tiring to try and make due with these half truths
Not sure what to do [...]

Rez Tested, Native Approved
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All you have to do is look in our eyes and realize we’re seasoned in this
It’s all we were shown so we do whatever we want, even if there’s no reason in it
No meaning in fixing what isn’t broke we know what works for here and now
One move strategies don’t exactly bring [...]

Unanticipated Awakening
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The only places I fit perfectly is in your eyes, hands, and arms
The very same places I know I’m completely safe from any harm
Pretty much a new start but enough to fill me in on where I stand
Forced to unveil myself as myself, but now I want to take that chance
Only to match the [...]

New Warrior Days
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Devestation and desicration, two things we saw and survived
Caught wind of how things work and got right on the grind
Picked up elements of crime and vied for forced recognition
Might not believe everything you see but this is how we’re living
Selling without commission, this is how things work around here
No time to think about [...]

Things are crazy for a lot of folks.  I know I got my drama going on, but I don’t just focus on that part of things going on.  I also got plans I still need to execute and follow up on.  I got plans I’m not sure are even going to happen until time passes.  [...]

Looking Outside the Crosshairs
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No matter what, they can’t say we didn’t put our all on the line
Because no odds were set in our favor at any point in time
Saw that as a sign of life to come and we took it all in
Only after our losses mounted up did we start to think of caution
No [...]

Refusing 2 Lose
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I’m nowhere near the person I want to be but I’m on my way
Once thought too much about the future, but now I’m not afraid
Started to see my ways when I embraced more of how to make a mess
But I have yet to cave and trade any precious time for something less
Even tried [...]