Incoherent Musings

Half of me is me trying to find you to make me complete
I don’t know if we met, but in you I forever believe
In you I see us going higher and futher than ever
The happiest couple out there will have some new contenders
More than defender and activist when it comes down to our time
In each [...]

Quiet was my presence learning lessons growing up
Now quiet is how I’m stressing, staying on the run
Praying all the fun isn’t done when it comes to our home
Even though it’s that home I forever have to leave alone
Have to get used to the cold surrounding me from here on out
Names I want to keep close [...]

It’s back and forth with these day to day ups and downs
Only afterwords was there a gathering with no cap and gown
Just lounged around after gaining ground in today’s episode
Wondering what goes on with each other seems to be all we know
So all we show is what’s needed for the moment at hand
It’s what we [...]

Went hunting w/ a bro who was asked to get a deer.  It was for a memorial deal, so meaning was there for this trip.  We went out, but didn’t really see anything worth shooting.  There was a staring match w/ a doe, but she was kinda small, so it was decided to let her [...]

The buff is tough.  Got hit, got diagnosed, then went through the chosen course of action, and now is trying out some recovery time.  Still trying to roll like nothing is wrong, but has to hang a leg for the time being.

Eye to closed eyes I couldn’t resist breaking down like that
I’m so sorry, I apologize for holding too tight your hand
I apologize for standing in the back where you couldn’t see
But I won’t apologize for the prayers given silently by me
Cause we can’t retrieve your physical form any more from now
All we can do is [...]

The days are hotter, the nights are shorter, and the mosquitos are out too.  to me, that’s signalling summer is coming.
Okay, so I forgot to mention on the “man down, man down” post that things are also pretty good in different areas.  I was invited, or maybe I just showed up to a memorial for [...]

Couldn’t do anything yourself, so it was up to another
Almost did something, but instead went down looking for cover
Now your runners got a little bit of limping action going on
Looking to you to see if you can do anything more than talk
Cause that’s all you’ve shown and what’s known to be expected
That’s why from me, [...]

Buffalo. That’s the name of a canine that I know.  Good dog, good w/ kids, good w/ us, traveled some of the same miles as us, chief’d w/ us, and watched out too.  He’s big though, and a lot of folks are scared of what they can’t handle.  So someone felt the need to shoot [...]

Thrown down, choked out, and it’s all about showing love
Finally got what you want, but the talk came a lil too rough
Now blood, lumps, and bruises speak so loud it’s about to go down
Natives go off for family when domestic violence come around
Might not make a sound, just pound and pound until these hands get [...]

so you think got a sure shot in your corner, only to find out at the worst possible time that this person is all about self.  Or, you think you got someone pegged as what you think they are, and come out with more heart than those in your circle already.  It’s a weird situation, [...]

there was a time when natives didn’t have to rely on others for anything. We rode, we hunted, fished, planted, prepared, and took care of our own all on our own. I still see that happening too, so for colvilles, I typed out a lot of what I’ve seen going on.
Our Colville Voice now has [...]

This is me, this is who I am and who you chose
If that doesn’t ring any bells, I’ll just let you know
I’ve held my own since before I’ve known anything else
Self sufficient was my walk as long as I could tell
Never asked for help and didn’t want to go that route
I was better fitted for [...]

All kinds of neph nephs today. No really, a lot of neph nephs around today. Not that I mind ‘em, but a collection of them together… I’d rather not get into it, but it was an interesting time though. Laughable of course, so it was good.
Bar-B-Qued oh so nicely too. Headed out, and got some [...]

The best and worst days I’m thankful for came on the rez
On first look it’s confusing how this place stays blessed
But I rest my head instead of losing breath when I find I’m home
Answering the phone or door knowing it can be hard to be alone
So I stow away any thoughts of privacy being reminded [...]

So the previous post was me deciding what to do for the day.  I wanted to try out some hiking, but eventually never did.  Instead it was random bits of chainsaw work around the house, but even that was halted.  I did a couple small brushes, and the chain zips off the bar and by [...]

What’s really good? I just lounged yesterday mostly. Did have a time of production, and that was when some of us went out and sighted in a couple guns. One gun was lighter grain, and didn’t have a lot of kick with it. Took a couple shots, and then it was back to being “dead [...]

Ever Since you’ve all been gone my mind is far from being set
Never knew what to expect in how to address your deaths
So we crept by your graves and replayed memories that help and hurt
Kept your names and faces inside but outside they were on some shirts
Wishing these tears turned around and didn’t fall like [...]

The rez, the rez, the rez, is coming alive for spring. Things are nutso though, for reals. Just a couple days ago, some mexican guy got stabbed to death around here. Natives are hunting for a low flying plane for reals (dumbfucks blowing up the spot going to get shot down). Rollers still trying to [...]

2day was a gooden actually. Woke up w/ the intentions of some horn hunting on some mountain, and actually accomplished such a task as well. The original plan involved 4 trecking natives, but ended up w/ 3.
So the 3 of us head out and almost get tagged by the rollers. They stroll by one way, [...]